Celestial Fire

Hey there folks! It’s already late July, and the summer months are flying by. In my neck of the woods anyway! Today I wanted to do something different. While I’m planning on completing, Episode Six of Outpost 157 later in the week. I wanted to talk about something different before hand.

I’m sure there are many of us, who have noticed that something is going on the planet. Obviously there are always things in the works, but energetically things are shifting. I’ve already gave my opinion on so called internet influencers. I’m not going there again, at least not in this post.

Rather I want to talk about having a true connection, compared to have a trauma bond with someone else. These also have been known as “Karmic” bonds. Not so long ago, I like so many got caught up in the whole Twin Flame fad. For about six years, I went through a mess of emotion, as well as confusion. At the end of the period, I realized the only thing that came out of it was stress, sadness, anxiety, and a feeling of being inadequate.

The whole experience was like a B52 going down in a blaze of glory…..Well not so much glory. When my “Twin Flame” experience ended…. It took me a good amount of time to reflect on it. I eventually came to the conclusion, that the person in question was in reality a heavy trauma bond.

The stages of denial are real….. But in the end they are equalizers, in a grand correction of behavior. I’m not going to go into all the details of my experience here. At least not today. But I’ve noticed, that as this energetic shift intensifies on the planet, people are hungry for true connection.

As a single guy, who has recently entered his middle years, and who is financially stable. At times I finding myself wondering, if companionship is the next logical step. Let me explain….

When I was growing up… When my friends were first exploring Girls Guys, Sexuality, and Emotional Intimacy. As well as the pitfalls of it all. I was getting used to being drastically empathetic, clairvoyant, as well as everything that came with it. As such I didn’t have the same experiences as them. By the time I had successfully completed, that initial phase of my life. I found my self in my mid 20s.

Thus they had left me far behind, in the world of typical adolescent experiences and growth. What resulted was, me trying to play catch up. Which ended poorly . I found myself in a series of emotionally based friendships, that never resulted in any type of true intimacy. Though, the other person was always extremely well, at teasing the possibility.

This occurred for many years. At it’s peak,(which occurred from my early-mid 30s). I often had sleepless nights, horrible stomach cramping, and at times just pure exhaustion.

This was also the period, I went though the supposed Twin Flame BS. Supposedly, the person I cared about the most, and I certainly did care about them. Hit me the hardest.

Constantly playing games, with my emotions. Which resulted in the perfect trauma bond. They wanted a real emotional connection with someone. And I wanted to believe that all the “Mirroring” we did was because of a true cosmic connection. That would evolve into a combination of pure love on a mind, body, soul level.

Spoiler Alert, it never did. In fact, it was just one drama to the next. Now this person knew, that even at mt my age…. I had never had been in any type of physically intimate relationship. Something that was hard for any guy to admit…..In fact they didn’t believe me at first. As apparently, despite the fact, I’m not a hideous creature.

When they finally did believe me. They felt the need to tease me indirectly. Often telling me how good they were in bed. Or how they loved to see the look in the eyes of a “virgin” when they entered their pussy.

They also loved to talk about the guys, they have been with. Even the ones who were 30+ years older then themselves. On one occasion, they even texted me, talking about a guys manhood that they couldn’t get over.

I’m sure you can see, the type of person this was by now. Let me tell you being exposed to someone telling you these things, just leads to sadness.

I could keep talking about this aspect of my experience. But I think I made the point. What eventually resulted in happening, was I finally gave the person a piece of my mind.. To their face, and I ended the friendship. Though I did, make an genuine attempt to apologize for my harsh words a couple years later.

You may be wondering why I would attempt to apologize for my words, or if the person responded to me. For the former, I just felt it was necessary. I don’t like exploding at people. In fact, it has only happened a few times over my life thus far.

For the later question…….. No I never head back from them. Nor do I expect to. Despite all that has occurred, I’m not mad at them. Nor do I wish them any ill will. It’s the opposite actually. I hope they find what they are looking for in life, and are happy. As for me, I feel the bond has been resolved/ healed.

Now being middle aged, I’m in a similar situation I was in my mid 20s. Though, I’m very comfortable with it. If I meet someone, then I meet someone.. It’s that simple.

I’ve abandoned the norms of our society, that result in a trap. True happiness, and true freedom are not based on societal norms.

Now, why did I share all of the above. It’s because I see, and read about people making the same mistakes I did. Many chasing a “Twin Flame” connection, that is most likely a trauma bond situation…..Look, I firmly believe we are fully complete spirits/souls from the gecko.

Yet, I also believe there is another special connection we share with another self. They are the one, who you are closest with, as you go along, experiencing all of creation with, as well as ascending with. They are like the a best friend, lover, sibling, and yourself all in one. As odd as it may sound . They are the closest to you, as you’re both on the ultimate journey. At the end of it, you’ll realize we are all One.

Here is the kicker….. This connection is cosmic, anchoring in higher dimensions. And if for some reason, you did come across this connection in physical reality… They would be the last one, to cause you harm, hurt, or trauma….. The connection will be easy! Every person who talks about a “Twin Flame” hurt. Should assess the connection again. And wake up to the possibility , that you’re actually in a trauma bond.

I want to end this post, with my thoughts on Online Dating apps. Look, they are garbage. I’m not going to say, they don’t work. Obviously they do for some. But in my experience, they have devalued the human behind the screen.

Also, they’re strictly designed to benefit women. I know that may sound weird, but think about it. All a woman has to do, is create a profile and wait. Within 72 hours or less, most woman have at least dozens of likes or messages. I’ve actually had women tell me, they had hundreds in the first 24 hours.

Now it doesn’t mean they are good quality matches. I don’t know how many profiles I’ve seen over the years. Where a woman lists all the qualities she’s looking for in a partner. I found the below, some of the most humorous.

1. Needs to have all their teeth
2. Needs to have a vehicle
3. Needs to have a job
4. No video games
5. No drugs
6. Has to be honest
7. Can’t be a cheater

etc…….. Every time I’ve seen things like this. It tells me exactly the type of person that they were in a previous relationship with. Perhaps they had many relationships with people who had qualities opposite of the above…

Which leads me to my next point. Dating apps may benefit women the most, functionality wise that is. But they are a breeding ground for duchy guys. You know the type, that think they are God’s gift to women. Perhaps sporting a gym selfie, with their shirt half up as a profile pic…….. Yep, those be the type.

Personally, It wouldn’t surprise me if 20% of the men on an app. Get 80% of the matches. Now don’t get me wrong, obviously I have no data to support a claim. I’m just making an observation based on my experiences, and what others have shared with me.

But simply put, women can be just as shallow as men. And when you prioritize physically looks over personality 80% t0 20% it creates a toxic environment.

If you don’t think dating apps prioritize looks, think again. The swipe Right or Left culture thrives on looks. After all, very few read a profile before looking at the pics. Within in instant, someone else has already passed judgment on another human, without even much of a thought.

My point is… Apps reinforce the trauma bond, by playing on the insecurities of the user base. Thus, very few genuine connections, relative to the full user base actually come out of them.

Why do you think Social Media, and like apps have resulted in more kids being depressed than ever. It’s not designed to bring you closer to one another, it’s designed to do the opposite. Duh!

It plays on insecurities, by creating a false narrative of what the societal norm is. Anyways, I’m going to end it here today. My point is simple. Don’t get caught up in toxic relationships of any kind. We are all unique and have a lot to offer. Also, let the Twin Flame concept die….. It has been corrupted by a distorted view of what we are actually remembering or looking for as a collective.